my head hurts

[KiraKill]

i feel like crap. i'm not exactly why. but i know it has something to do with something that happened today.
i was talking to one of my ex-boyfriends and everything was going okay i guess....well not really. he kept wanting me to lean against him and let him hold me close. i let him but hte entire time i was thinking about my boyfriend and what he'd think if he saw that. it really hurt me because my ex just kept saying that he really misses being with me and that he still loves me and stuff. and then when he had to go home....HE TRIED TO KISS ME!!! and he knows that i have a boyfriend! and he has a girlfriend!!! holy shit!!! then i started talking to my ex-girlfriend and i started remembering the past and how things used to be. how i was always happy when i saw her face...and how after we broke up.....how sad i got and how depressed i was. and now i can't forget the past. it hurts me so much! i just want to forget and live a happy life with my new boyfriend. i don't want the past to haunt me anymore. help!

[Hion]

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[KiraKill]

what is that suppose to mean?

[ZeroEverlast]

What's with switching the opposing party's gender mid-paragraph?

Ain't cool, man.

[KatandMouse]

I don't really know what to say. It's hard to let the past go. In fact, I've never been able too. I thought I'd left some painful stuff in my past behind, but it all sort of resurfaced about a month ago. Right now I'm doing my best not to think about it. But our pasts are a part of us, and in leaving them behind, we hurt ourselves. I think that's why it's so hard to make them leave.

My only advice is just do your best. Decide what you want. Decide what will happen when you do that. And then do something.

Sorry I couldn't be more helpful.

[KiraKill]

thanks for the help anyway

[Black Ashes]

Zero, she's saying that she started talking to her ex-girlfriend after she was with her ex-boyfriend.

[Hion]

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[KiraKill]

is thatt all hion can say? i'd like it more if he actually said something

[Black Ashes]

he's kinda mad at the moment...

[Akito]

Hion's mad? :eek: Ahhhh!! *hides under bed*

[KiraKill]

what's wrong with him? is it something i said?

[Black Ashes]

don't worry about him.

[KiraKill]

ok, i won't worry if you tell me not to. but i still do worry. i feel like i did something to get him mad.

[ZeroEverlast]

Oh I see.

Soz, I intuitively assume that most people aren't bi.

Well, most people will say "Gosh, suck it up and move on," which, actually, isn't bad advice. I think I know how you feel though.

Personally, I find it's better not to think of the breakups and depressions. Just think of the good times you've spent together, and how happy you both were, etc. but don't lock them away in a hidden compartment of your mind or whatnot. Embrace and cherish those memories.

I'm grateful to all the girls I've ever loved. Yeah, so we broke up eventually and every relationship had its ups and downs. So what? I like to think we've helped each other grow and mature. And we'll always share the same pleasant memories. There's absolutely no need to reenact them or anything.

All too often, people try to avoid or forget about their past relationships. They shouldn't have to be afraid of admitting "Yeah, you were a big influence on my life, and I'll never forget the good times we've shared. You've become an imprint on my life."

It's fine to let go of the past and accept it for what it is, man. You can still appreciate your exes and tell them so, but the present is about your current boyfriend and about how you want to make happy memories with him too that you'll cherish for all your life.

Don't let such things get you down. Love and sex are supposed to be happy things, don't ruin them by succumbing to depression.

[Hion]

Personally, I find it's better not to think of the breakups and depressions. Just think of the good times you've spent together, and how happy you both were, etc. but don't lock them away in a hidden compartment of your mind or whatnot. Embrace and cherish those memories.

I have to agree I suppose

[KiraKill]

hion said something!! me happy now :)
well i guess i have to agree with zero too. i see the point that you're trying to make andi think i'll take that advice. thanks man.

[loverKLH]

im so lost.....
hi kira. :)

[KiraKill]

hi lover!
it's ok to be lost. i get like that a lot.

[Black Ashes]

oh yeah kira it's Karisa!! ^-^ that's who Lover is!!

[KiraKill]

oohhh!!! ok. that's cool. thanks for telling me.